I want to write what I want to write

Essays, exams, discussion board posts, reflections, and speeches. Uni really takes its toll on a writer. It feels like I am writing all the time, yet I don't fell like I am writing what I ought to be. What I want to write. Words are caged up inside my head while I choke on assessment for university. But will it all be worth it, I wonder. Do the essays sculpt me into a better writer? Does writing 2000 words of a chapter of a novel steer me toward some day a novelist? I think it can help, but you need your own passion first. It can be hard to write this first chapter, to immerse your entire self into an idea, only for the semester to end and for you to have to quickly get a new idea and do it all over again. All those poor little uni pieces that get stamped with a grade and then forgotten about- I am sure there are best-selling stories among them.

When you are writing all these pieces of assessment for university it is hard to find time to read what you really want to read, let alone write what you really want to write! I don't think I could sit down and begin a screenplay about the zombie apocalypse when my English essay is guilting me into paying it attention--an annoying little voice in the back of my head. With uni there I don't think I could really put my whole self into writing something. But maybe I should try. I feel like I need to develop the kinds of things I want to write, so that after university I have direction and focus. But the essays and readings will always be there, and unfortunately I can't ignore them!